Life can be so busy. At this point in my life, it is at a fever pitch with 4 kids each in his or her own sports and activities. Add in normal life stuff like birthday parties, social events, family gatherings and sometimes I feel like I am spinning in a never ending revolving door.
Recently the level of activity was even higher than normal for about 2 months, and when it was over I crashed – big time. I basically spent the last 4 weeks doing very little more that was absolutely necessary – time at rest.
I’ve stayed in bed to a ridiculous (for me) hour day after day. I have read 6 books. I have even let my super-clean-house standard relax a little bit, which has led my family to question, “Where is Mom and what have you done with her?”
And you know what? The world has not stopped. Things have not fallen apart. Even better, I have had time to think and reflect.
I have thought long and hard about my marriage and how to make it better.
I have started eating better – a goal I always had, but never made time for in my busy schedule.
A quiet voice inside me has wondered if I tackle so many projects as an excuse to avoid the hard work I need to do in my life – the kind of work that I cannot just stay up late one night and finish – the kind of work that takes many months (years, even) and then still requires attention and maintenance. I usually push the voice aside and focus on my crisp, new project list.
Having time to rest has made that voice louder and I have decided to accept its challenges. This is newer territory for me, but it feels like a necessary change. The projects in our house are largely done, the kids are all in school (one is out of school!) and life is busy in new and different ways then when our kids were small and our house unfinished.
So, I am resisting the urge to call the past month ‘wasted time.’ Even though I did not cross any projects off of a list, I gained a new perspective that I hope will propel me forward in other ways.
Have you spent time at rest? If not, consider when you might be able to. You might be surprised at what you discover.